Irresistible.

What with Lent beginning and everyone giving up their favourite things, I of course jumped on the bandwagon with my house mate and we gave up take-aways (excluding meals out, just ordering in food when we're too bored/drunk/lazy to do otherwise). This led onto a thought of things that I couldn't ever give up, because they are just too irresistible. This is that list. 

Things I can't resist:

A cuddle with my boyfriend.

A glass of wine on a warm evening.

Pub gardens in the summer.

Being the centre of attention.

Getting accidentally drunk.

Staying in pyjamas and not doing anything for a day.

One more episode of my favourite TV show at an anti-social hour.

Reading a book in the bath.

Roast potatoes (hot or cold).

Chocolate.

Peppercorn sauce, a rare steak and fat, fluffy-centred chips.

An extra fifteen minutes in bed.

Red shoes.

Pretty dresses.

Ordering a ridiculously complex coffee covered in whipped cream from Starbucks.

Laying on the grass.

Spending time with my friends.

Looking at pictures of cartoon cats.

Buying new nail varnish.

Listening to my favourite songs on repeat for hours.

Planning the future.

The smell and heat of wood fires.

Sea breeze.

Cigarettes and coffee outside cafes.

Remembering old times with friends.

Pretending my life is a multi-million dollar movie and that I'm really awesome.

Burying my head in the sand when things get too difficult.

Squirty cream, straight to the mouth.

Christmas.

Putting things off to the last second.

Being loved.

Spending money.

Assessing these things, it's very obvious that I have something of a hectic lifestyle and I want this to change. Having a discussion with my house mate recently, we discovered that through changing one part of our lives we want to change more and more to make ourselves happier. But how much can we change before we cease to be ourselves? And on the flip side, how little can you do to effect change?

I could probably make a change within myself to be more determined. I could stop putting things off till the last second, I can definitely stop sleeping in all the time, and I can definitely stop myself from wallowing in my own self-pity whenever something goes wrong. I would stick to a budget if I drew one up for myself. It would be better for my mental state, I'd definitely have a good outlook in the pragmatic sense of the word and most importantly I'd be happier. I want to be happier.

I know I could give up some of the foods, because I've already done it. The diet I started at the start of this semester kickstarted a change within my "relationship with food" (I hate that phrase) and denying myself food twice a week is just a part of my life now. It's easier to choose food when you know what's good for you and how many calories each thing contains. So in actual fact, I don't think I should have to give anything up because I've been behaving so much better with my eating habits that it would be worse to give up things I love.

So what else is there to change? Not a lot really. Perhaps what I actually need to do is learn to be happy with what I've got.